hapi burfday to myself? ...

celebration with darling ^^
he gave me a surprise.. at least tis year my cake are not all kemik hehe ^^ still remember last year's birthday he came with one old lik M r Bean car to my house on midnite and ask me go down to his car to celebrate wit me..
he asked me to close eyes the same method he did to me tis morning.. haha... den he brought a cake out and ask me to open my eyes i saw something tat which is i never saw b4 de do you know wat is it? the cake is all break already because of he took motor to the shop to get the cake then the road has lots of holes and meke him unstable and the cake look weird haha ^^

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haha okay den i waited for a few minutes and thr my cake came le... is secret recipe de chocolate endulgence ^^ tats my favorite.. ^^ i love tat cake so much....

and he gave me an ODM watch i am so excited... i love tat watch too... and my sis also bought me a bear ^^

free fr0m stress ^^

at last finals for diploma second year finished le... i m so happy when i finish my exam.. i even call my darling my parent n told them "i finish exam le "
and i even call everyone of my badge from DSE2 i called them up to say i finish exam n even scream "arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" haha to release stress hehe ^^ opsss sorry if i make u all fell not comfort.. ^^

but i really wanted to share my happiness to u guys espeacially my darling ^^ i love you so much...
do you know tat you really gave a move to make me study the whole thing on that day? i really appreciate it... i even wanted to hug you when i done my exam ... i want to let u feel that i m happy because i can answer better than last sem... and i listen to you tat i study it just for myself not for others... because result comes out is mine not others...
i really understand the theories... thankx so much my dear ^^ I LOVE YOU !!!

now is the time for me to think bout my future le... do i really want to work all time or i want to continue study y advance while working?
if i want to study advance n working part time, can i manage ? do i really can manage my time n my feelings, my stress well? in diploma year i din manage it well... and what i know is i cried a lot when the finals exam is near...

so now is the time to think....^^

giving up :'(

start to cry again ...
i am so useless, just a motor paper why can it make me feel so up sad? i really don want to study anymore...
i cant even study i m crying all time... it is so worst.... i cant believed that i m crying more than i m studying now.. i m crying n my mind cant even study for motor paper...
why why why?? why is motor paper so hard?? i really giving up le..
no matter i fail i repeat o anything... i don want the diploma cert le is so hard...
i don want go for the exam tomoro.. if i go also i know it will sure fail again and is wasting my parents money for paying for resit... :'(
when i start study this subject my mind will always think think think n think worry worry worry n worry bout passing or fail that all...

thinking nonsense , but not studying! i duno wat m i doin right now !!!

ARGhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...................... !!!

Will really pray hard for it !!!

i m really very scared of this subject...bcoz i had fail before for this paper OMG!!
grrrrr.... really want it to be pass fast so that i m free frm stress and concentrate on my NK girls...

i m studying the paper now n i really hope that i can just pass for this time... don say get an A first just past then at least i can graduate my diploma and get a diploma cert...
if i didnt it is gonna be so shameful!!! i dont want it to be happen in my life ever!!! pls... i really pray hard for my this LAST paper....!!!!

GO go go!!! U CAN DO IT!!! ^^

Do you really know that i need you??

I really need you , you know ma?
you always so busy!!!!
for you i am always not believed in you ma? why?
you still love me? you sure ma?

crying**

my heart are so pain... :(
i m crying...
why he said tat i don believed him? why???
;-( i am so hurt you know ma?
why must you said tat? why must you so sensative...
i din mention is you... why u so sensative?