~Recently~

I was busy with all my car's documents = make me so headache bout it !~ feel so down when i heard bad news bout my car~ realli sad... i praying so hard to get it smoothly but it doesnt goes well as what i thought! why? why izit like this? hmmm ya i know this things needs time i also sabar while waiting for it.. and today the call really make me so blur make my mind so blank bout it... and that time i was coaching my girls... phew~ its really sad when u gt the money to get a car and thr is something happen somewhr.. grrrrrr... this call got money also cant get wat u want!~ so~~~ it means u rich also no use!~

and before that i was so excited of searching many car accessories for my new car~ and it is all break!!!!!!!

Just Be As Simple As It Can Be~

Nothing to mention in this entry, but just have a look at ma bloggie it is become more simple isn't?Anyway just wanna say people in this world should "just be as simple as they can be" ! and don't make this world  so complicated because it is just so simple isn't?? Just want it to be more simple! tats all!!And sometimes too complicated make ppl having too much of thoughts~ and when ppl think too much thy will start to worried bout everything and get stuck in somewhr.... phew~ *sad*

HURT!~

Hmm do you even think what you have done last night really hurt me? the way you reply my msg?? huh? 

i tell you! you really HURT me gao gao yest!

hmm ya u won u make me cry lik no business for the whole nite 

and yet u still can sleep so nicely!~

fine!~ ya i m always wrong! yes i always keep things my own!

did you even think what i really wants?

hmmm after emo-ing yest, 

i feel lik i m so stupid ok?

well yes i m stupid! 

continue with wat u wan now! 

i don wanna comment anymore!!!

i m angry n emoing u also dont know!! grrrrr....

OMG OMG OMG!!!

*you really hurt so so so deeply!*

Emo"ing"

feel so emo right now... duno how to express my feelings right now :(

feel very very very down, sad, n duno wat to do already....

any advice for me?

i wanna be happy but not lots of worries, stress and more

anyone can help me??

i really nid help now..

i don wanna be depressed i wanna be happy and excited . 

well, i can say is i hav not much frens tat really know my problem.

may be bcz i always keep thing on myself and i duno how to express it to you guys..

i feel bad, when i feel down i duno who to find to talk with

ya you all will be saying "find ur bf la"

hmm well, ya i knw will find bf to talk! but wat i really need is frens..

friend's care, their worries on me, their advices.

i miss all my friends so much!~

I MISS YOU ALL!~ 

is true!

i also wanna be as close as possible wit u guys. 

always have outing dinner, lunch, breakfast togeda and of course,

share our feeling and more and more more more~~~

what i need now is "FRIENDS"

yes ! is friends`~!!!

I NEED FRIENDS !~

I love you and i MISS YOU guys too!~

I m BACK with my title "purple"

Phew~ have been so long never blog le... well~ recently was so busy till i cant even have time to blog my recent life in here.. feel so sad... like being so outdated from here right now... but..... nevermind, i m BACK again with the new look of my bloggie and also wanted to show u guys whats my recent life that is goin on and on and on~~~

Just have a look at my blog right now! there is totally different from last time one's isn't? izit nice?? hehe :) i love this so much. is nice right wasn't it? With the matching color of purple n bit red pink and of course a watermark templates which i found is quite nice too :)

Well~ done with my new bloggie's look... now is my turn is bout me! what i did recently? why m i so busy huh?

okay~! now i wanna tell bit bout my convocation which held on the last few week ago... haha XD hmm.. My convo was on the 17th JULY 2010 = what a big big day for me* haha.. bcz is my second time wearing the gown.. well the first time was when i was 6 years old graduate from kindergarden konon la... haha.. and now is my second time in my life wearing bit different gown hehe ^^ was so excited tat day actually bcz can't imagine i was wearing it and went up to stage :) there i took some pic from the convo ~ please have a look :)

TARA *~~

And not forget bout my lovely snoopy and my favorite "ferrero rocher" hehe :)

TARA*~~

♥ snoopy ♥

TARA*~~

♥ Ferrero Rocher ♥

And after all my convo i went to have lunch with my dear and my family. yeah~! and that i m GRADUATE from diploma in Sport And Exercise Science :) and here, i wanna thanks to all my beloved lecturer, Ms Ler Hui Yin, Ms Woo Mei Teng, Mr Chan Kai Quinn...

and i wanna say is tq for being so helpful when i m in trouble n lots of problemss* Mr chan tq so so so so much~! * and i would like to say bout one of my admired lecturer here he is: Dr. Tan. He isi funny and i like the way he teaches us in class. He is totally different from all the part time lec. he is the most specials ones for me :) wee~ for me , he teach me a lot about not only the text, but also his GOLDEN experience, he likes to share a lot bout his past to us during the class so that we won feel asleep during his class *his teaching method is different right?** isn't he? hehe... :) heart him so much ^^ *muackxx* hahaa....

nah~ isn't told you is gonna be super long entry this time .. bcz i have been so cool to this blog past few weeks?? months?? haha... i think u uys read till sien liao hehe.. okok... here is some photo gallery to relax a while first kk?? ^^

Is actually bout my new look and my new car *woopsss* actually is the car i wanted and thinking buying anot hehe :) ohya forgot to mention right here that i have pass my driving test on 26th july :)  I was a little afraid and shivering when i was being test on the "bukit" and others parking 3 pointer and on-the road was just fine ^^

TARA*~~

is the picture of me with purple background :)

then, is me with the funny and nice looking**?? motobike...

smart annot? haha...

and here last one for todays entry :)

the Myvi Limited Edision~~

haha... is dazzling red :)

Okay!~ is done with all the stuff i wanna share during previous period... now i will see when again i will update my blog ya :) haha... no worries it wont be long time may be after a week? month?? haha year??? it is impossible!! okok... time to bed right now  nite nite everyone have a good rest n  ENJOY READING MY BLOGGIE :)

recently ....

really duno what to post recently... i have no mood at all and i m so busy with my work stuff..!!! hmmm haih :( well may b u guys think that coaching is just sitting down n doin nothing n just collect salary when it reach end of month! but i tell you it is totally wrong concept okay?!
and i was so emo this few days i duno why??? hmmm very sad!

always thinking why m i so unlucky and why m i born in here? why? i don undertsand !!!

Testing !

Just trying with iPod touch *wee* yay!!!~

Meng Seng's birthday celebration *hugs*

Yesterday, we went out to meet each other after their class at 8.30pm. we plan to celebrate MENG SENG's 21st birthday. so we plan to buy a slice of cake for him and i made a red eggie for him.. ^^ is my first time making red eggie in my whole life, even my mum also jealous says tat her birthday din make her red eggie but i made for my classmates hehe =) i was so excited when i ask to make red eggie for MENG SENG ~ 

*This is the one i made myself*

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TARA !!! ~
The red EGGIE ^^

then is US !!! ~
**HAPPY FAMILY**
but sadly is joshua, melvin, hee kin, and also SAM not here... :(
colin was here just din took pic with us he went back early only :)

and is me with the birthday boy boy ^^
(*i like this picture so much !!! ~~ *)

then is me again with the youngest among us !~

**KEVIN**

and then is me with yun yun = bei bei *wee*

okay enough taking pic with frens now is MENG SENG birthday we should take picture of him and his boom hair style ^^ *laugh*
Here is the birthday boy with age of 21 this year and celebrating wit DSE2 = ASE1 (2010)
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*TARA!!!~~~*

happy birthday to you~~~
happy birthday to you~~~
happy birthday , happy birthday, happy birthday to YOU~~

太感动了！~ “呵呵！”
“谢谢你们，我很开兴有你们帮我庆祝胜日噢！”
“虽然，是芒果蛋糕~~” **去年，我的朋友也是买芒果的蛋糕啦！哈哈~**
“我觉得我自己好幸福噢~因为有你们这样的朋友！~”
“我爱你们！~*hugs* ”


i bought him the mango cake is because he always says “我比芒果还要忙~！”
so thats why i bought him mango cake...
it is mango delight from secret recipe~ this cake is quite nice i even bought this for MS.ROS (my coach) during her celebration  =)


KEVIN : "okay enough talking later the candle all drop in ur cake then u cant eat it hahaha XD"
YUN: "faster make a wish !~~~"


and this is the way he make his wish and keep ask me to take the pic hahahahahahaha XP
**SUPER FUNNY + CUTE!~ **
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**TARA!!!~~*

"eeeeeeeeeeeeeee" haha XD
is he cute???
haha okok enough le la thats all for yest celebration and this is also the last pic =)

hope you really enjoy !~ gambateh ASE1! you all can go through this term test!!! come on go fight win~~!!! haha XD

i will always support you guys.... find one day we will meet again ! don miss me too much^^ haha... kevin dont miss me too much with my funny act during class last time :) and all the best in your studies bcz thr is no more ppl can accompany you resit this time you must work even harder!!! ^^ *hugs*

YUN>>> you also don worry too much!~ don understand what lec teaching then go find ms ler she will always thr for you and don cry when u turn back ur head and look again.... u can turn back but make sure you wont cry anymore ok? *hugs* i know u miss my voice during classs hahaha XD *perasan* opssssss!!~~~

“一年后，我们订婚吧”

My mandrin is not tat good as you all know  ^^ so is so hard for me to write it in mandrin hehe .... well, this happens when...........

Date : 29th may 2010

Time : 10:00 pm

Venue : Pavilion , Ichiban sushi

Actually yest we went for a movie " happy go lucky" at pavilion is a 6.20 pm show .

Release Date: 27 May 2010

Language: Mandarin

Genre: Comedy

Running Time: 1 hour 43 minutes

Director: Harry Yap

Cast: Fann Wong, Lau Leng Leng, Patricia Low, Richard Low.

Synopsis: "Happy Go Lucky" seeks to tackle the issue of gambling in a light-hearted yet touching manner. Hardcore gambler, Hock Lee Poh (Richard Low) is an ardent believer of Feng Shui, but is always down on his luck. His eldest daughter Donna (Patricia Mok), though petty and calculative, spends all her time and money on lavish nightlife and hunky social escorts - till she loses everything in the end. Fu Xin (Fann Wong), Poh's illegitimate second daughter is born at an extremely inauspicious hour and thus labeled as the "jinx" of the family. However, Fu Xin actually is a surreptitious 'Lucky Star' who always manages to turn unfavourable conditions into favourable ones. Fu Xin sacrifices a lot for the family. And in a twist of fate and luck, she unexpectedly helps Poh to win a hefty sum of money. Meanwhile, Poh and Donna find themselves stranded along the streets of Cambodia in a failed attempt to recoup their losses at the gambling tables. So, after the movie we went for dinner at Ichiban Sushi. i was enjoying my meal because i have him together with me during my meal it is so 幸福！*hugs* and as usual we will have our chit chatting bout our own thing and suddenly he told me what he plans after overseas studying his masters. he told me his masters are one year and after one year he will come back and see me and will want to know my answer. then i was curious? why need my answer? what answer do you want? he said ya i want to engaged with you after my masters if everything goes well and thr is nothing happen between us. he said he tell me now and he give me one year to think bout it. and he said when the time he come back he will come find me and ask for my ANSWER. but IF, i REJECT! then he said he gonna be single forever. is so hard.... why he said he will be single forever if i REJECT? because he said he is not young le and that is the time for him to think to get a 所谓的“未婚妻” lol...but after a year i m just oni 21 years old de girl and ..... hmmm i duno wat to say wor?????!!?? i m damn blur when he told me that ! and i did told him that all this will decide oni when he comes back and when i see him . and he said when he back he hope to bring me overseas to stay over thr n live over thr... and then hav out busy working life thr.. and i was thinking...... my job is in KL , malaysia only... and i oni work full time for one year wor ppl will say wat wor? work one year den don wan work jor? hmmm and to go oversea and hav a trip with him is ok but..... to stay thr  n work i don think i can manage and i also don wan to be his负担！everything should let it be more stable first ba... and i n him also is oni 1 year n 7 months now and by the time i know is already 2 years++ but how still i think is too little for me! everything should wait till you come back and see what happen to us when u oversea ba... anything can happen... not say i don trust him but is...... i duno how to say la.. may be ELENE u can help me to express my feelings now? :) hmmmm make me so fan wor.... lol... i gonna miss him so much when he go overseas leh!!! miss him badly... *hugs* AGHhhhhhhhhh..... i am here MALAYSIA and you at UK !!! is so so so so...... far~~~ and then the time is so big difference... and i will like to say i will gonna wait for ur call n msgs everyday and night!!!~~~

❤1 year 7 month ❤

dear,
already with you 1 year and 7 months le.. time pass so fast.... :) throughout this days,months, year, i feel so happy when the moment i with you... thanks for being so caring for me... all the time i know you are the only one that treat me good enough le... i feel very touch ^^

thanks for being side by side with me till now.... we really go through many stuff many problem many things.... unable to express hehe ^^

LOVE you so much dear ❤

Privacy - usually.....

hmm well ... you guys will be thinking why am i changing my blog permission from privacy to public??? ok well actually i used to keep my stuff alone myself... and i love to speak out my thing my inner part of my heart in to this blog... actually i started this just beginning of this year, JAN i think...

you guys must be curious bout why am i say i started on JAN but my bloggie only started from APRIL? hmmm well.. actually i delete those i wrote before this... and i think of not telling anyone bout my pass because i think it is too privacy for me... and i think what i wrote last time is already pass and it is not gonna happen again in my life.... it is just history, part of my life...

as you all know i love to blog is because i love to update some photos, what am i going through in my life, what problem i face, what happiness thing that can make me think back n smile alone in room while i sitting infront of my lappie and start blogging and looking back my bloggie.. what i wrote, what i think before.... and that make me feel like i m growing from last time... i can see that.. it is true... and the thing is when u blog u r going to express ur feeling out everything into this when u r lonely , hard to tell out the thing happen to u, and anything . just make u feel better after u blog.... that is what i feel after i blog..

and some of you will be asking i already make it as privacy then why now change it to public? hmm ok well.... is just because of someone i change... he ask me to show out my blog to everyone not to keep alone, yes keep alone so that no one know bout wat i thinking but..... when u keep as provacy and u start blogging out and no one will know what u thinking and so why u start blogging when thr is no ppl around to comment? so... just because of his words i change my mind. thats y i change it to public, because i also want my fren around me to support me and know bout my stuff....~

Yeah! Huray~~~ start blogging now^^
wee~~ wee~~ wee~~

results...

yes i gt my result yesterday guess wat??
i got 3.58 for my GPA wahahahahaha.... so damn happy lo ^^
i was very excited >.< style="text-align: center;">ta ~ ra~

we are happy family ^^
we took a lots of pictures that day...
1st : darling n me :)

always like to play around with him during class > meng seng

can say so he is the one i trust the most ba ^^

she is very smart and is one of my 38 gang fren in class > yun :)his name is khoo =cool * haha XD
this guy look physically fit but no dout he is a marathoner haha XD
am i right melvin!~???

next~~ will be our class super singer star haha..
he treat me very good like brother and sista ^^
we r so close untill ppl say us are couple *last time* haha XD

and not forgetting of course is our class joker hehe (:
he is colin lets giv a big clap **

I had a very happy day wit them yest :) i feel so touch when i see them again... and when all of us are going to leave i feel so down because so fast again i need to leave le and cant meet them often anymore cant make many jokes with them cant play and have fun like last time in diploma year! because i m gonna go for my working life and thy are continuing their advance in college :(
feel so down suddenly... i hope i will see them soon again.. and don forget there is another 6 more left i haven meet them!! i will make sure myself find them out one day ^^

ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS!!!!

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU GUYS OUT THERE!! *hugs*

hapi burfday to myself? ...

celebration with darling ^^
he gave me a surprise.. at least tis year my cake are not all kemik hehe ^^ still remember last year's birthday he came with one old lik M r Bean car to my house on midnite and ask me go down to his car to celebrate wit me..
he asked me to close eyes the same method he did to me tis morning.. haha... den he brought a cake out and ask me to open my eyes i saw something tat which is i never saw b4 de do you know wat is it? the cake is all break already because of he took motor to the shop to get the cake then the road has lots of holes and meke him unstable and the cake look weird haha ^^

but look now/Photo0745.jpg">ain..

haha okay den i waited for a few minutes and thr my cake came le... is secret recipe de chocolate endulgence ^^ tats my favorite.. ^^ i love tat cake so much....

and he gave me an ODM watch i am so excited... i love tat watch too... and my sis also bought me a bear ^^

free fr0m stress ^^

at last finals for diploma second year finished le... i m so happy when i finish my exam.. i even call my darling my parent n told them "i finish exam le "
and i even call everyone of my badge from DSE2 i called them up to say i finish exam n even scream "arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" haha to release stress hehe ^^ opsss sorry if i make u all fell not comfort.. ^^

but i really wanted to share my happiness to u guys espeacially my darling ^^ i love you so much...
do you know tat you really gave a move to make me study the whole thing on that day? i really appreciate it... i even wanted to hug you when i done my exam ... i want to let u feel that i m happy because i can answer better than last sem... and i listen to you tat i study it just for myself not for others... because result comes out is mine not others...
i really understand the theories... thankx so much my dear ^^ I LOVE YOU !!!

now is the time for me to think bout my future le... do i really want to work all time or i want to continue study y advance while working?
if i want to study advance n working part time, can i manage ? do i really can manage my time n my feelings, my stress well? in diploma year i din manage it well... and what i know is i cried a lot when the finals exam is near...

so now is the time to think....^^

giving up :'(

start to cry again ...
i am so useless, just a motor paper why can it make me feel so up sad? i really don want to study anymore...
i cant even study i m crying all time... it is so worst.... i cant believed that i m crying more than i m studying now.. i m crying n my mind cant even study for motor paper...
why why why?? why is motor paper so hard?? i really giving up le..
no matter i fail i repeat o anything... i don want the diploma cert le is so hard...
i don want go for the exam tomoro.. if i go also i know it will sure fail again and is wasting my parents money for paying for resit... :'(
when i start study this subject my mind will always think think think n think worry worry worry n worry bout passing or fail that all...

thinking nonsense , but not studying! i duno wat m i doin right now !!!

ARGhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...................... !!!

Will really pray hard for it !!!

i m really very scared of this subject...bcoz i had fail before for this paper OMG!!
grrrrr.... really want it to be pass fast so that i m free frm stress and concentrate on my NK girls...

i m studying the paper now n i really hope that i can just pass for this time... don say get an A first just past then at least i can graduate my diploma and get a diploma cert...
if i didnt it is gonna be so shameful!!! i dont want it to be happen in my life ever!!! pls... i really pray hard for my this LAST paper....!!!!

GO go go!!! U CAN DO IT!!! ^^

Do you really know that i need you??

I really need you , you know ma?
you always so busy!!!!
for you i am always not believed in you ma? why?
you still love me? you sure ma?

crying**

my heart are so pain... :(
i m crying...
why he said tat i don believed him? why???
;-( i am so hurt you know ma?
why must you said tat? why must you so sensative...
i din mention is you... why u so sensative?